And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt. ~Sylvia Plath
I’ve heard that there’s going to be a High School reunion back home later on this year. Although I’m curious, I think there’s a bit of apprehension there. I’ve tried to remember what it was like in High School and although there are some good memories, I think most of those years were difficult. I guess most people have horror stories about High School, but aside from a few key moments with a couple of close friends, there’s not much I enjoyed.
The other thing you have to remember is that you never perceive yourself the way others perceive you. I think people thought I was smart, but all I remember was a shy, awkward girl that couldn’t get a date for her senior prom. I even managed to get turned down by a few guys I asked (one was even a sophomore) that sort of things scars a girl. I mean, was I really that hideous? Ok, I had a dubious haircut and it was a fashion low point in the 90s, but was I that bad?
So, like thousands of people who have done this before me, I wonder if I’m still that awkward kid I was all those years ago. Will I have anything to say if I go?
Having lived in the UK for the pat 14 years, I feel more isolated, more like a foreigner than ever. It’s not a reflection on anyone from my old classes, but more about how time, distance and life in general skews memories. Maybe it wasn’t all that bad? I did meet some amazing people in school and my experience with them will have helped shape who I am today, so that must be a good thing, right?
I did manage to see some people from my old school a few months ago, last time I was in California and I must confess them all to be charming, friendly people, so if some of them turn up, it will make me feel more comfortable.
So, mixed feelings? Absolutely. Will I go and try to reconnect with old classmates? Probably. I just hope we all have something to say to each other after all this time.
Try this, pick a school memory and try to remember as much as possible. Was there an incident or a series of them that had an impact on your life? How do you remember yourself 10, 15 or even 20 years ago?