I’ve heard that there’s going to be a High School reunion back home later on this year. Although I’m curious, I think there’s a bit of apprehension there. I’ve tried to remember what it was like in High School and although there are some good memories, I think most of those years were difficult. I guess most people have horror stories about High School, but aside from a few key moments with a couple of close friends, there’s not much I enjoyed.
The other thing you have to remember is that you never perceive yourself the way others perceive you. I think people thought I was smart, but all I remember was a shy, awkward girl that couldn’t get a date for her senior prom. I even managed to get turned down by a few guys I asked (one was even a sophomore) that sort of things scars a girl. I mean, was I really that hideous? Ok, I had a dubious haircut and it was a fashion low point in the 90s, but was I that bad?
So, like thousands of people who have done this before me, I wonder if I’m still that awkward kid I was all those years ago. Will I have anything to say if I go?
Having lived in the UK for the pat 14 years, I feel more isolated, more like a foreigner than ever. It’s not a reflection on anyone from my old classes, but more about how time, distance and life in general skews memories. Maybe it wasn’t all that bad? I did meet some amazing people in school and my experience with them will have helped shape who I am today, so that must be a good thing, right?
I did manage to see some people from my old school a few months ago, last time I was in California and I must confess them all to be charming, friendly people, so if some of them turn up, it will make me feel more comfortable.
So, mixed feelings? Absolutely. Will I go and try to reconnect with old classmates? Probably. I just hope we all have something to say to each other after all this time.
Try this, pick a school memory and try to remember as much as possible. Was there an incident or a series of them that had an impact on your life? How do you remember yourself 10, 15 or even 20 years ago?